Chapter 1

I woke up feeling dizzy and i started coughing so hard and all i can see is smoke. i can barely see, i started looking for my mother and khalid! I found mom laying on her bed telling me: 5leeny w 6l3y o5ook bsr3a ya Maryam bsr3a!

I ran as fast as i could to khalid's room i carried him and i started to go down on the stairs but i couldn't continue because i wasn't able to breath and khalid has passed out but when my eyes started closing by itself i saw a figure i didn't know who that was but BANG i fainted! I can breath oxygen again finally! But i saw my home infront of me burn! I remembered mom! Oh god i started running toword the house again but he stopped me. Him. I started kicking him saying: etrkny mama da5l btmoot!! 5la9 5leeny!

9ali7 *him* : 8oly allah yr7mha 6l3naha hy w o5ok bs ll2sf klhom shohada2 b24n allah! Ed3eelhom enh allah yr7mhom!

Me: yeah sure now let me go mom is still waiting for me to help her etrkny come on! 

9ali7: Maryam why will i lie to you for god sake!

Tears started to get down from my eyes, i started crying like crazy! I need mom i can't live without her! Khalid, khalid was my angel! 

9ali7: ana 9ali7 wld Hind, 9dee8t omk.

My name is Maryam i'm 16. I'm weird, i don't like what girls like, like they love manicure i hate it it disgust me, girls love make-up i hate it. Girls love getting attention, I don’t. girls love to take care of how they look, I don’t Girls love boys and they love drama, i don't. my friends and cousins always tell me that I act like boys a lot and it’s weird that I never admit that a boy is good looking although sometimes they are :P

Khalid is my little brother, he was 4 he was the cutest thing ever!

M7md is my big brother he's 21, he studies in Sharjah University and he barely comes to visit us. 

9ali7 is my mother's friend son he's 21, that was the first time i see him although he seems like he know me a lot :/

Dad always travels because of his work, I adore him but i'm just mad because i don't spend much time with him!

So after crying my eyes has dried because I think that my tears nshfo so 9ali7 took me to the hospital. 

Me: 9ali7 ab3'a aklm baba. 

9ali7: tf6'ly.. Bs ween 3mi a9ln?

Me: msafer bdubai. 

9ali7: oh. 

*tot tot tot tot tot*

Baba: slam 3laikom meen m3ay?

Me: baba baba *i started crying* baba mama w khalid ra7oooo! 

I couldn't talk so 9ali7 took my phone and told baba to come. 

After checking and shit 9ali7 took me to his house and 5ala hind, his mother prepared a room for me so as soon as i entered i slept, i sleep to forget, that's my thing! 

After 5 hours i heard the door knocks bs i couldn't move so i didn't care. Baba entered as soon as i saw him i jumped out of bed and hugged me and started crying!

Baba: 9ali7 8aly kil shy, 89'a2 w 8dr ya bnty allah yr7mhom. 

Me: 6yb esht8tlhom baba :( i can't live without them! 

Baba: you have me sweet heart <3 

And i hugged him again! I love him <3 

He took me and we went to grandpa house. 

All my aunts and cousins and uncles were like: 36'm allah ajrk and blah blah blah. 

I sat with Noura my closest cousin, i didn't say a word. 

Noura is 17 and she is so understanding, although she judge a lot and I hate this but after all I love her so much <3 

Noura understood my silence so she stayed quite too. 

It was 4 elfajr and i was tired all my relatives weren't there so i went up and slept, granny made the maids fix up stairs bedrooms <3 

I woke up the next day at 10 am, it's Friday. Fridays are depressing, but this time it's more-depressing! I went down kissed my dad and grandparents foreheads and sat with them. Afternoon people started to come for the 3azza. I saw my best friends coming i hugged them tight and started crying!

Samar, Leena, Reem, Sara.

They all cried with me <3 

So I’ll tell you why I love them

I love Samar because I trust her with my whole heart and she’s white hearted person mashala and she always smile no matter what w 7l6mtha t6’7k =))

I love Leena because she always knows how to solve problems, mtwa6’3a and she knows what to do!

I love Reem because she stays in my side no matter what! Even when I’m wrong she correct my mistakes!

And finally I love Sara because she always know how to make me feel better and I can tell her anything and she doesn’t judge me!

5alty Hind calls me everyday to check on me, y7leelha <3 

I don't know anything about my mother side. I used to ask her a lot but she didn't answer me and she gets mad by the question so i shut up! 

A week has passed, nothing interesting. I went to school and all the girls and teachers were like: 36'm allah ajrk w bljanna inshala <3 slmt 3la 9dee8aty w ki4a but wa6'e7 enhom 5ayfeen mny =)) bs i laughed at how they acted! Periods has passed and I was just waiting when will the last period end! We had fun and that. 5l9 eldawam i took my stuff w 6l3t fj2a wala i don't see the driver bs i saw 9ali7 in front of me, he waved for me so i went to see what's wrong. 

Me: hala 9ali7 leesh jay?

9ali7: la abd bs jay a54k mn elmdrsa w awdeek shy 7lo :D

Me: haha ween eldriver w baba? 

9ali7: the driver ra7 b3d ma matt zojth. 

Me: oh yeah. 

9ali7: yalla lets get in the car! 

I sat at the back seat

9ali7: n3m ya omi 8ayleenlik sawa8? =))

Me: la bs awkward a83d 8dam n3m? =))

9ali7: hahaha okay 3la ra7tik. 

Me: 9ali7?

9ali7: halaa

Me: shokran 3la kil shy ma 89art <3

9ali7: shd3wa ma sweena 3'eer elwajb <3

I felt shy so skt. 

After 5 minutes.

Me: 9ali7 ween bnroo7? 

9ali7: km marra a8ool surprise?

Me: 6yb asf. 

9ali7: =))

Shwy ella e7na 8idam chili's! Nzlna and when we entered: SURPRISE!!! I started crying because they scared me wj3! 

9ali7 started laughing at how my face was like :(.